Sorry, fan. I know you've been waiting for my posts. Well, I just turned 30, and this prompted me to want to write.
When I was younger, I would watch sitcoms where people would be turning 30 and they would be freaking out. Since I was like 14, I really didn't get it. I was like, "What's the big deal? You're pretty, you have a cool apartment, you have a lot of friends and nice clothes....what's the problem?" But now that I'm 30 I totally get it. You see, I thought by 30 I'd be married, have a house, and have a baby. Oh, and have a job that I'd get to quit to have my baby. Or, if that didn't happen, I'd be all sweet and be like partying and be too cool for all that. That's why I moved to Vegas, after all. But instead, I'm living in an apartment with my common-law husband with a mountain of debt, I'm unemployed, have aquaintences from the apt. complexes instead of friends, and I have a time limit to have kids bc I have "the diabetes." Great. Not exactly the life I had in mind. Now, most of my friends who are 30 or are turning 30 are married and have at least one kid. And of course they have a job. Right now, I can't even get hired at Target. Yea for journalism degrees!
Turning 30 is all about realizing that you failed at all the stuff you thought you'd be successful at by now. Even those people who have jobs and houses probably thought they'd being doing something else or be doing it better at this point. Maybe they thought they'd be out of their hometown by now. At least I did that. I am a risk taker, for all it gets me. Maybe they thought they'd have a hotter husband (got that one, too!) or gasp!--cuter kids. Y'all know babies aren't all cute, right?
But I guess for all the crap that I haven't done, I have done or at least am starting to do some stuff right. I did move to Vegas to "make it." I did make a meeting with a dude in a Vegas club at 3 am turn into a 6-yr relationship. I do have 3 adorable furry babies. I did do an awesome job as an editor for my paper before my "attitude" got me in trouble. And finally, I'm going to be a teacher soon, and I'm really looking forward to it.
